Hello everyone. Thank you for all these incredible posts. I am focusing more on the positives now. I'll be back later to reply more specifically to posts.

Came back from IC. As it's been a few weeks since the first visit, we just talked about my holiday adventures with W. Suggests I need to minimize contact even more.

IC was concerned with W behavior. Found it confused. I do agree W seems confused like 25 says even though I don't see that side of her now. I hope she is still seeing her IC.

IC was also concerned about stability for S12 giving W's frequent schedule changes. Wondered if W wanted to be a parent anymore. I can't believe that my W would leave S12. For example, she did supermom for S12's science fair project... completely redoing the one I helped him with. It was great and I should have told her good job.

My IC reinforced that there's nothing I can do about W and I have to focus on myself and my recovery. I made 2 appointments with her week after next. We will focus on my depression, anger, and inner strength. The A/D are not working for me yet she says. I will also call about that divorce support group at the mega church up the street.

In the meantime IC says I'm to ramp up my exercise. So I'm getting dressed to go to my first Crossfit class ever. I'm focused on having a good time.

It was nice, though, to again talk with someone who understands what is happening with us. She can also speak with S12. I will send a link to her website to W to see what she thinks. As the IC is an MC, lets see if W brings up MC again.

OK off to sweat. I really don't feel like it... but after years of working out I know that's the best time to go.

Thank you again everyone.


Me: 44
W: 45
S: 11
Married: 15
Together: 18
BD: 9/29/2014
OM discovered: 10/16/2014
I left her behind: 12/14/2014