Db'd after W D me in 04 remarried W in 07 DB again

[Jbird]

I'm not happy with the current situation and I do worry about the future if she backs away from wanting the D. From the outside almost everyone says run for the hills, even my children. I do have a special needs D20 that I take care of and she just wants her parents together.

I believe the mental illnesses contributes to the drug addiction, so even with the relapses I don't know if I want to give up. Without W in my life it would probably be easier, except for caring for my SND20. I am a stay at home dad because of my SND20. I do have royalty income that has allowed me the privilege of caring for her.

I still love my W, it's difficult to stay or run for the hills.