Trying to find ways to connect with H without pursuing. Maybe I shouldn't be doing that right now? But, we do live together and interact quite normally, even if more like friends. I thought I knew what his main LLs are but not really sure. I used to get upset because he "held back" affection (apart from sex) but maybe he was just holding it back from me. He's affectionate with the girls and his mom.

We've had a lot of idle time the past few days, kids are back at school, I haven't been working and he obviously isn't working. I guess maybe I'm a little lost on what I should be doing in regard to interacting with him.

Met my friend to run again last night, glad to get back to that. Money is definitely an issue for me but I am going to try to find a couple of projects that I can work on.

Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since