barely holding on - 6

[u-turn]

Thanks Wonka
I do see the positives and I have always looked for them. (I am skeptical when they appear - because I have been a fool (chump) for so long). They have been lies before (or I did not act on them in the right way). I do worry that the re-connection is not about me and her - only about perpetuating this mess.

Thanks for pointing the positives out. I am letting it sit now - not reminding her about the fact that I told her to leave a couple days ago.

I don't forget these things and I'm sure she doesn't either.

I'm just trying to stay positive with her.

Thanks!!