Stayed home today from work. Been trying to ignore my depressing feelings...faking it to feel happy. Point is, I am run down and also sick. I want her in my life romantically and so far feel I have stuck to the coparent/no friend deal. It is hard. What I want is a romantic relationship with her. I cannot say or act on that and know I have to wait for her, but it is so odd. Odd being around her, having her nervously chat, Throw in questions here and there because she is afraid to just have a normal conversation. If she cares what I am doing/feeling, why does she not come out and just say it? Why dance around? What does she expect from me?
Me43/WAW43..M 4y..S1 11/S2 4..Bomb2/2014..Dfile 5/2014..Settlement signed 8/20/14..D final 8/29/14 I moved out 10/10/14..WAW got D she wanted. I wanted R. No waiting,just no boundaries in her way.
