Ganb8te 3 - conquering crow pose

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Ugh. Having one of my impatient, frustrated, needy days today. Probably because I let my mind go wild with the idea that H might actually respond to my bday text having turned a leaf after his trip back home.

Sometimes I just want to call him up and say: “Look, what’s going on here? Is there someone else? What are your plans once we’re eligible to file? Personally, I don’t really get this. I know things weren’t great in the lead up to BD but they weren’t always that way. After all my reading and IC sessions I’ve reached the conclusion that we are a totally normal couple with really common problems that just need to get worked through. There are MCs, couples retreats, so many things available to couples like us that have problems like ours. Why don’t we just hanker down and get this done? If we don’t they’re bound to resurface in our new relationships and we’ll have to work through them then. I’d much rather do that work with you because - in spite of everything - I actually still like you and am attracted to you. Do you still have feelings for me? You seem like you do. OK then, take my hand and lets do this!”

Right then. Just wanted to get that off my chest...