Oh Claire, everything you've said really resonates with me. I've not been at it as long as you but this:
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25 years gave her M a 10% chance. I think I'm at 0%. Because I don't think I should have married him in the first place. I don't think he was ever right for me. I cannot imagine feeling an emotional connection to him again. I'm not sure how I could ever trust him again. I did everything I possibly could have done. My conscience is clear. But it still feels heart-breaking.
Feels directly out of my head. I'm not sure we ever had more than a semi-shallow emotional connection at best, despite what I told myself. We had good times but way more tumultuous times, anger, frustration, disrespect, contempt. None of this is fun or easy, that's for sure. Good times, respectful times are ahead, even if only from ourselves.
