Lorelai, we are so lucky and fortunate to be able to crumble completely and the people here will listen and say, "I've been there, this helped me". This process is hell but it would be so much worse were it not for this board and these caring people. Thank you maybell, uR, labug, card... Absolutely everyone!!
Labug, yes, Tara Brach. Incredible stuff. Truly.
Calibri, I'm off to follow because I AM a brave girl. So are you! We all are. So, so brave!!
I am feeling much, much better tonight. The ache in my chest is diminished and I can actually take a deep breath. It's a nice change.
I'm a drastically changed woman since July. H wouldn't know that because he has not taken the time to see me. It'd be a shame for all this to end without him knowing what he's actually leaving and without him doing the necessary work but his choices are his choices. Painful yes but today they're looking less insurmountable.
P.s. It was 79 degrees today and will be about 83 tomorrow. Listening to my own music while all the car windows are down? Priceless!!
