Thank you, Betsey. I know it's stupid to want a kind of permission to give up on him. But I've learned so much the value of perspective and I guess I felt like I needed confirmation that I really had done everything I could.
There are a lot of things I could have done better, even recently. Under the circumstances, I did what I could with the tools and materials available. I would never choose to go through this and if I ever get hit with this Mack truck ever again I will do it very differently... But I really hope I never do again. But that said, my growth has been powerful and I appreciate being stronger now than at any other time in my life.
I don't know what I'm going to do about this dinner. I absolutely don't want to share a meal with him. On the other hand I see the value of ironing some things out in person so if I can think of an alternative to dinner I'll suggest that instead.
My aversion to him seems slightly unprovoked considering nothing new has happened in the last couple of weeks. Maybe I've just stopped trying to cover it up with hope for reconciliation.
Last edited by Maybell; 01/07/1502:02 AM.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
