No one knows what the future holds for you and your W. But I do believe that your chances will improve if you stop being the pursuer and become the distancer.

I reread your story and it was probably very difficult to hold back that long. It may have made no difference whatsoever. You just have to keep the pursuer/distancer dynamic in your mind.

What are some of your 180s?

Me: 32 W: 29 T:8 M: 6 D4 S2
M - 8/2008
W is not happy - 1/2014
W wants D - 9/2014
W moved out - 11/2014
D filed - 1/23/2015
D'ed - 2/25/2015
Gave X the Letter - 11/10/2015