barely holding on - 6

[u-turn]

Just journaling (thanks for listening - I feel a little guilty for not adding much to others - but really wound up with my own crap right now)

I know to focus on me and the kids, but she is acting so differently now that I do not want to make a mistake and un-do this process (if there is actually a process taking place).
Can this happen this quickly? (I doubt it)

She wasn't emotional any more after work - that did worry me that she is happy at work (and I know that is a terrible thing to think - she should be happy at work - this is how I would want our lives to be).

I know this is not going to be a linear process - I just don't want to be manipulated any more.

She did come home yesterday like nothing was different. Pretty happy and talkative, hugged the kids (unusual), hugged me (she forgot about my broken ribs and nearly took me down). Talked about things at work. She really seems to want to make conversation with me about anything (work, TV, weather) she is really trying.

She went to sleep early (without her phone).

This morning she apologized for keeping me up with her nightmares - I slept just fine and didn't notice though.

She sent me a pursuing text this afternoon which is throwing me off a little - I don't want to start analyzing her every move and I don't know if it manipulation or real changes.

w: Don't know if it is appropriate...just wanted to say hi...you are on my mind.
me: Thanks W. Hi. Thinking of you too. (not a lie - and I still want to acknowledge her and be friendly - I guess)

Didn't think I would be second guessing my every word now. I feel like I actually have an upper hand right now, feel strong, feel like I can be independent and she could be trying to chip away at that OR really make changes in fear of the loss.

Am I just playing her game?