Thanks for mentioning me in dispatches! Hey, it sounds a little as though you are putting your life on hold....waiting and hoping. Who knows, your H may 'wake up' and want to reconcile....but he may not...
One thing I think of is, if we reconcile, I also want to know that I would have been fine alone too. I feel if I wouldn't have been happy alone, I'm reconciling because I 'need' him and not because I want him 'as icing on the cake' in my life.
It sounds as though there's lots going on in your life, but you may want to think about how you can better accept the current situation with your H - and where a positive outcome isn't necessarily reconciliation, but you having a happy and fulfilling life come what may. You deserve better than to be sitting waiting for someone who (at least for now, and who knows for how long) is with someone else..
I know how tough it is, but you owe it to yourself....Toots x
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
