WAH - gone almost 1 year, still so hard.

[stacey9]

I have to be honest - I am visualizing an outcome where H regrets his actions and wants to come back. I know it's unlikely but it could happen.

But I also would like to be totally unconcerned about where he is and what he's doing. To be able to see them together and not have that gut wrenching feeling of utter hopelessness would be a positive outcome for me.