WAH - gone almost 1 year, still so hard.

[stacey9]

Rpp thanks so much for checking in on me! And a very happy birthday to you.

Not much to report I'm afraid, not seen much of H during the last couple of weeks, although a fb friend did post photos of a new year party and there in the background were H and OW, smiling and happy.

I don't post much but I do check up on all your threads - very strange indeed about your H flirting with you RPP (if it was my H, I would be overjoyed!). I especially like reading up on yourself, Mozza, Little, SS, Lisa, Maybell, Toots, Jim, Hpoirot, Kgirl, Raliced, Vanilla, card, and the advice and observations really really help. I also read back often on the advice given to me and cannot thank everyone enough for that.

I just wish this sinking feeling would go. I think of H and OW most of the day, I just can't seem to detach from them. I feel so much more hopeful when I think it may not last although from everything I see it seems to be very serious between them. I think he must have been so bored with his life with me and now he is living the life of a single guy with no ties and he seems to love it. And he seems so in love with her.

MWD says to visualize a positive outcome and when I do this I feel so much better, but is it giving me false hope?

I am busy with work, family, pets, the house etc and I am grateful for so many things in my life.

I just keep looking for a sign, any sign, no matter how small, that he is sorry for what he's done, or has a bit of doubt in his mind, or just misses something about me. And I hate this OW so much for being half responsible for breaking up my family.

Thanks for listening!
S