Little but FIERCE (Little's Thread #5)

[Little]

Right on, Dawn.

I showed him unconditional love over and over and over and over again. I gave up things for him, I compromised in his favor a million times. I wanted to be with him more than I wanted any of what I gave up. I didn't ask for anything in return and I did not/am not keeping score, except that I would kind of like not to be abandoned in the end.

I try to focus on the fact that I'm ME. I am me and no one else is me. I want an R where me being ME is desireable. Because I am who I am and that can't be found in anyone but ME.

I want to be fought for, loved for who I am, appreciated for my personality and my humor, and I want someone to go, 'there is NO way I'm giving up on this woman; we'll work on our R or we'll die trying, but living without her is not an option for me'.


My brain knows I will not find that with BF. C'est la vie. He has proven this, repeatedly, and I need to give up on the idea that I will. He picked someone else. He's decided we "don't work together" when my bottom line is "I love you and we'll figure the rest out." It doesn't harmonize.

NOW...get my emotions to quit sulking about it.