train, 25yrs, others who kept up on my sitch

[twinmom]

Train you're right when you say I still love him in some way. And yes my decision (or thoughts on the subject) have a lot to do with the kids. I did NOT like spending Christmas day alone (all afternoon) and even though the twins are not even 3 yet they kept asking for mommy while at BIL's house.

I may go crazy some days but I like being home with them 95% of the time. And if I am being REALLY honest, I like not being alone in the evenings.

It's easier financially and physically as H almost always puts the kids to bed.

Train, PLEASE help me. I too am very scared. I don't want to be hurt again. Do I tell him no more staying the night, in less words "go dark"?? See if he hits rock bottom while I try and detach again?