Hey S. Im not sure why you think you should be getting 2 x 4s.
I do think that you are taking some steps to take care of you and that is important.
Just be sure that it is for you and not to get a reaction because that usually backfires.
We all go through this in our own time and in our own way. You are grieving the loss of the marriage you knew. You are trying to find your way. It is hard stuff.
What I would like is for you to really start to believe that you will be ok...no matter what happens. You will be. Without a doubt.
The truth is that you have to come to a place of acceptance of what is right now. Doesnt mean it will always be like this. But accepting it allows you to move forward. I think you are kind of stuck a bit.
Please remember to show your daughter strength as much as you can. Thats not to say she shouldnt see you sad, because this is a sad thing. But, she is watching closely. You have the opportunity to show her how to get through life's turmoils with courage and strength. What a wonderful gift. Show her well.
So, what is the fear, S? Let's talk through it. When you face them, you will see they arent as you thought they were.
Do what you have to do to take care of you. ((((hugs))))
