Betsey, thank you so much for visiting me today -- you said all the right things.
You are right, as he is right now, he's no catch. I don't know if he's strung together ten honest words to me in two years or more. probably longer. But sometimes I have to be reminded.
(I want to say that a LOT of people have said the exact right words to me, especially today, and I would acknowledge them all more fully if I weren't trying to get the kitchen clean and the kids ready for bed and me ready to read a chapter of Harry Potter before 9:00)
In all the ways that matter my life is better and more hopeful than it it was while I struggled to be happy with him. As I was making dinner tonight and balancing talking to my little brother with refereeing Lego fights and a naggy D11, I thought of making dinner for some other husband and just cringed. Companionship, yes. Another spouse... Not conceivable at this time (including going back to a M with my actual H).
Fear is my lighthouse. I keep forgetting that my mission is to head TOWARDS it. thank you all for being such great tugboats.
Last edited by Maybell; 01/06/1501:29 AM.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
thank you all for being such great tugboats. 