Little but FIERCE (Little's Thread #5)

[Little]

I don't have faith that that's the way things will shake out.

He was with his last partner for 10 years, and he did to her what he did to me; unhappy, cheat when he checked out, walk away.

I saw it, participated in it, and I was shown who he was, then. Stupidly, I didn't believe it. I convinced myself that we were different and he had learned his lesson; he claimed he had and wasn't interested in hurting people like that again.

Until he did it to me, 10 years later. But the depth of the deception and the lies shocks and disturbs me. I didn't know the rabbit hole was that deep. I didn't know this man that I fell in love with could do these types of things.

I'm told by mutual friends that have known him forever that that's his MO; while his first stint of cheating (that anyone is aware of) was the GF before me, he's gone from one R into the next immediately with no more than a week's break in between. Since high school.

He's had ZERO time to work on himself, but the cycle of cheating he's started 20 years ago continues. He doesn't learn and he doesn't care to learn. He some how manages to go X amount of years in relationships convincing himself he's okay, until he's unhappy and unfulfilled and bails again without working on it.

I don't have faith he'll ever learn to be a better person and/or will ever get his just deserts for hurting others. Or wake up and have an OMG moment.. He's just going to float from R to R, unless OW manages to keep him entertained enough to hold on permanently.

Who knows? I want to have faith that he can become someone better, more compassionate, more self-aware, less selfish. But I can't right now.

Jerk.