Thank you everyone. Crimson...I feel like if I were to go to acouncellor it would be like letting the flood gates open- I feel like the only thing keeping us together was me not 'exploding' . He is the type of person that would take 5 years to recover from his own mistake if someone rubbed it in....and I fear going to a councellor would render me....restraintless in letting him know howmuch he hurt me. Which would equate to 5 years 'recouperation' on his part (if not more). So I suck it up. But I do see its slso not the answer frown Hes slready naming our next children...and making plans....and I'm.... Lost still:(


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