barely holding on - 6

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Thank you wonka and hp.

Just a quick update as this is nothing like I have dealt with yet.

When I got up this morning, W was sitting on the couch, in the dark sobbing. No phone in her hand (which is unusual). Not trying to get a reaction from me (she wouldn't know that I would have gone in there and see her). She is feeling something.

She definitely was looking like I have felt for the last year - and to be honest, it is hard to see her like this. I don't need her to hurt, but if it is a process that she needs to go through I understand. But need to understand more so I don't do anything to hinder it.

I did sit next to her for a minute, but said nothing.

Later ran into her in the kitchen and she grabbed me for a big hug - but we still said nothing.

I left for work.

It's very strange to be feeling that I am ready to move on, realizing that I have gotten nearly nothing from her for a year - and now she is emotional.

maybe she knows that I don't need her - another one of her issues with me was the fact that I put her happiness above my own.

I don't mean to sound negative - but this is very confusing to me.