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[Mozza]

Thanks MCS. I still follow every post on your thread. Yes, it looks like our WAWs are diverging somewhat. I think it's because my W has a simpler situation with her OM. He left his GF quickly for her and moved in with W (today! yay!), so she can find peace and calm there. She gives me the typical "good mood" of WAS who are in a good place with OM. Also, she had almost no anger at me when she left. I think she was just too focused on OM already. Actually, noting that almost all WAS seem to have anger issues with LBS when they leave, I don't really know why my W has none. She can get upset. Perhaps she feels too much guilt.

I agree my W doesn't appear to be dealing with her issues, but I'm also not sure if she does because I don't see her or really know what's going on with her. Maybe she's a new person? Probably not, otherwise she wouldn't be sending me the video of her office party and brag about drinking too much to remember what she ate.

We just had a fairly long text exchange about the kids and I kept it to a minimum, not taking any of the lines she threw me, like asking about the Holidays ("very good!") or the kids ("very good!") or her jet lag (no reaction). It pains me a lot: I miss her and I crave interacting with her. I really, really want to text "I didn't want this separation and I'm still heartbroken, but I'm moving on. What else can I do?" But I won't.

Her indifference to me during the S talks really hurt me. It was amazing to see her unmoved by my love and pain. It felt worse than her anger. I don't want to go back there. I don't want to admit to her that I'm still in love with her and hear crickets in return. It feels like being a trapeze artist, throwing yourself at your partner and he doesn't extend a hand, so you fall.