Yep, I heard that song one of the first weeks after BD. I spent hours over the next couple months listening to it with tears in my eyes. The other one on the same album is "House of their Dreams" reading the last couple pages of your sitch, that one will hit home too. Basically, H spends life 'providing' for the family, but W gets lost and has an A, they re-center their lives to God and make amends. Both of those songs have set the foundation of where I hope the outcome of my sitch will be. I feel the same way, that for some reason; this is what I'm supposed to go through. It's the first stumble of my life that I have absolutely no control over and need to hand it off to God. Not quite sure what else in my life could do that than my W leaving when I had no clue nor was prepared.
So, don't beat yourself up with selfish prayers. You are connecting with Him and that's one of the main things he wants right now. The time will come that you'll know that your prayers should focus on others. Don't sweat it. For me, other than his help for me and my family, I pray that he helps guide my wife through this journey and allow her heart to be open to his love. Also, I pray that I have clarity that the things I'm doing are his will and not my own way of doing things.
Also, John Waller - While I'm Waiting
Try that one out to. Never thought 6 months ago, I'd be having discussions about Christian Rock on an Internet forum focused on broken M....see there is a plan that we don't understand.....
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M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
