Thank you all so much for your TLC. I have a small family so this has been daunting. Fortunately I have great friends but their patience has it's limits. I have learned a lot about who my real friends are in a crisis. I am blessed with many but they are not family.
Shining - I loved your post. I can relate completely when you wrote, "I'm almost certain, as strange as this may sound, that one day, even years or decades from now, my H will regret all he has done. I believe he loves me. I believe he will want me back, but will not necessarily have the courage to face it all."
KML - I am too tired to make a list with the new job but I will soon. The job was #1 so I am off to a good start.
SunshineLewis - your gentle wake up call was like a hug. It is unfair but that's life. The holidays were just so hard.
AJ - Isn't hard in this throw-a-way, instant gratification society that loyalty isn't revered? Just an observation but you are so right about the wisdom of the folks on this board. Thanks for stopping by.
Bright {{{HUGS}}} for you too.
Daring thanks for the validation. I just feel like maybe I imagined my entire life.
The last few weeks I have experienced so much as I am now a single parent working full time and going back to my hometown for Christmas. These changes/events have helped me to see myself for the first time in decades. I am starting to see Gwen the person. Not just the wife of Mr. Gwen or the mother of 2xD but me. I forgot who she was deep inside. I am just seeing her for the first time in oh so long. It is going to take a while but I see that person starting to come out a bit.
A silver lining perhaps?
M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters BD: 5/14 Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW D Final 9/17
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ― Maya Angelou
The job was #1 so I am off to a good start.
