It happened so fast. I was just chilling, then I started thinking about OM's W, wondering if she knew about it. I sent WAW a question, and she immediately knew what I was getting at. It spiraled quickly, I got even more mad.
I really don't get it. It must be a question of temperament. Why would you make the effort of sending a text when doing nothing serves you better? I see a pattern. You couldn't help pursuing her earlier. It was always just a little text, a comment in passing, etc. Now it's this lashing. Do you have some impulse control problem? Was it where the porn addiction came from? You seem to have it under control now.
Anyway, next time you have such an impulse, throw the phone away on your couch or bed, then wait a few minutes and decide if it's worth it. You really need a mechanism. I don't know if you realize, but it will keep you from achieving your goals. Confessing to doing it here does not cancel it. At some point, you will have done some real, lasting damage.
Yes, I do have an impulse control problem. Porn, angry outbursts (though rare), pursuit during DB, bad food choices. Yep
Turning to a bad support group triggered it, though
Me 38, WAW 30 D11 (former marriage) S2 T 8 years M 3 years BD 8/20/23 S 8/20/23
