Sorry the holidays succked for you. I think part of that is because you still look to him to make your life better.
He cant do that...only you can.
So, first of all, you arent an idiot for giving him some gifts to open. It was a kind, loving thing to do. The problem was you had expectations. You cant have any where he is concerned.
Second of all, it is not ok about the money, S. Trust me when I tell you that. My xh had $60,000 in debt I knew nothing about because he had the bills sent elsewhere. I was responsible for half in the divorce. Yea...you read that right. Didnt matter that I didnt know.
You cannot live your life in fear, S. You have to take care of you and your daughter.
If you continue to worry about upsetting him, you continue to give him all the power. Thats not ok. You need to take it back.
Who do you want to see when you look back at this time in your life? Who do you want your daughter to see?
You cannot continue to hinge your happiness, your life, your feelings of self worth on him. What a burden to him, what a disservice to you.
If he wants a divorce, he will get one no matter what you do.
So, what does facing your fears look like? What if you did and you knew that you would be ok?
You can do this, S. We all believe that. Time for you to believe it, too.
