I know your emotions are running on overdrive. I feel the same way. But honestly, they got even WORSE once H and I started sleeping together (and he doesn't even have a OW).
I was like you in that I though sex with H would be a positive thing and maybe open some doors for me. But the truth is, I'm still in the same position, only now I feel used and hurt. It's like a bad drug. I want to stop, but it's so hard now. It's an addiction in a sense. There's a high while we ML followed by a huge low when he's gone. The whole thing is very, very painful.
Judging from how others have handled situation with OW I would say stick to your guns and keep the boundary of no sex until OW is gone. Strong is sexy. And I think you'll be much stronger by holding your ground.
Hang in there.
Me 26 ; H 26 S 8 Married less than a year Bomb 9/15/14 H moves out 9/15/14 H Files 11/21/14 Served D papers 12/31/14
