I LOVE your post. It is exactly what I needed to hear this morning. Mea culpa. I definitely took them up on their kindnesses & went too far. They did make my life easier but it's nice to see it from a different angle. That will stop! I will be away from today on for 3 months so it may be less stressful for everyone & hopefully L's absence will give her time to reflect & work out her issues. She continues to go to school to become a nurse so she must know that the ohone is NOT ok on the job!
I thought about it last night & reached the same conclusion as you wrote. Let it play out. If they quit, they quit. I want the agency to "feel" the uncertainty so they can think of a backup plan but at the same time - I have to stop letting this eat at me. My blood pressure is quite high right now - that's not good.
At the end of the "blowup" day - J did assure me that she would do her shifts every day & keep things good for Ryan (& I believe she will). Only if I say too much to the agency will things erupt. Maybe I just have to forget what was said to me that was very hurtful & let it go. The agency shift coordinator told me she is a DUCK - lets everything roll right off of her. I wish I was a DUCK! But I'm a SPONGE - I soak in everything everyone says & does then I get HOT and everything starts to fester & gets worse. I must stop doing this. Stop worrying!
But on to Florida. When I am there - I truly let loose (not in a bad way) & let the agency handle Ryan. I need to get back there & out of this crap & crappy weather.
