Inbetween Land

[Faith2b]

Geesh I went for the emotions bad in this roller coaster ride. I realize how he is trying to throw me off. Im going to say less. I think even though I am now coming to more terms that I do care that he is with someone this may help me to move forward. I was thinking I have alot of explaining to h becuae of where I let him take me this last blow up. I did go over board. I need to stay the course. I admitingly feel for him in the sexual department and I wanna get back to work on this portion. But I agree that would be yuk to do this now. I guess I need to explore all ranges of crazy due to the fact he brung this topic up. Im just not that into sharing Im way to loyal and way to deserving of the whole package. I was mad at him but once again the finger is pointed back at me. Becuae I no my worth he may be clouded but my judgemnt should steer clear of any further non GAL thinking smh. THIS IS SOOOO HARD!!!!!!!