Inbetween Land

[Faith2b]

No Toots I can take even more brutal!! Any other takers??? Look Im really just trying to figure things out. When h called and said he still wanted to do all these affectionate things with me. I felt a pulling from my own longing for this. I said no and set a boundary. At the same time I have to be more honest with myself. Because up into this incodent I have been telling him I dont care about the ow and him. Everytime we talk he trys to bring them up as a topic and I have to tell him I dont care as long as he is happy. Anyways I am now realizing I have moe healing more honesty that I need to tell myself about how I feel. Im not sure when he does talk to me how much I should reveal. He was being honest with me when he told me his feelings. I then had to confront my own feeling which are I care and I want to have a connectiong through sex cuddling time talking. With that said thats why this whole sex topic has arose. I talked to my friend and she said try sleeping with him. I said well everything else is to hell. Ugh I appreciate honest. But understand Im being vrutally honest I am confronting thngs as we go here. This is emotional and very hard. I want the best for me at this point. Just considering all my options as they come. It says in DR to throw out your old thinking so thats were Iwas coming from. I need to get this all out so when the time comes and we are together Ican make the best choice for me. Which I am more and more feeling like my initial no with boundaries works for me. Plus I really dont want my children to think this is right as well. Ok my senses are coming back to me. Still may need some brutality lol. GAL ON!!!