Inbetween Land

[Faith2b]

I feel it wI'll keep us connected. He has ow. I have been very very legalistic. I had so many ideas on how everything should go. I still believe in my boundaries. But at this point it's not just about me being right or giving my holier than thou lifestyle because I'm not perfect and I have not always made the best choices. I'm just feeling why not level with him. Sex feels right it will help keep my emotions down. I will be honest it does feel like I'm just saying ok this is what u have thought to work let's see. OW is relevent yes because she is trying to work her way into my H heart but if he is not sure than why wouldn't I try this I'm trying other 180's. Including the fact that the last time we split up I refused to have sex with him. He came back we went to counseling but we still didn't have the skills to hold our r together so he left and this time he decided he would expand his horizon w ow from dating site because he was not gonna be held out on sex. Look this sounds really bad to me too but maybe that's just why I should try it. Feedback please?????