2014 was a rough year but 2015 will be what you make it. So decide that you've had enough of cr@p and you're ready to take the yuck and chuck it so 2015 will be the year Ss finds out how awesome she is.
You've been with your H since you were 19, right, freshly emerging from your appalling childhood?
Guess what, this time is the gift you've been given to grow into your own woman. To find out what makes your engine rev when you get to drive the bus solo.
IMO you spend way too much time with him. How can you detach when he shows up for most of your GAL? What can you do to separate more deeply from him?
HUGS, my dear, this is a low. Start cranking up that hill again, the view is much nicer from the top.
How did I miss seeing this, maybell?
Yes, been with H since I was 19 fresh from a traumatic and appalling childhood. I do want to find what makes my engine rev when I have the keys, I do.
I agree with you, I spend WAY too much time with him. I try to keep to myself when he's around. I don't engage much but I'm afraid I'm coming across as antisocial or aloof. Over the holidays I just couldn't NOT be aloof, I was in just so much pain but now? I just need him to not be around. This upcoming week with school starting back... It'll be easier.
He texted me tonight and invited me out with D tomorrow. I would love to hang with D but I'm over all these "family" outings. I don't want to be his buddy. I feel guilty though because that's one more thing on D. Less of the three of us. Is that a bad decision? I just don't know.
I'm climbing that hill. I am. I know it has only been 6 months but I'm exhausted of all this. I think I need to get away.
