It's hard to see clearly when you are feeling so emotional. It sounds like you are in a bit of a panic mode. Try listening to some relaxation music, have a hot bath, go for a run or a walk. If you can find a way to distress and get a good nights sleep things will look differently. I know how awful it feels when ur home no longer feels like a home and there is negative tension. I found burning some sented candles and doing things that brought me peace and comfort would help me cope. Sending hugs

Me 52 H 44
T9 M 5
BD 12/11 H
split 8/12
OW moved in 12/12
OW gone for good 6/14
We get closer again 9/14
SD 13 Me 4 Grown





Accept what is...let go of what was and have faith in what will be.