Card29 IX - New Year, New Card

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- Rationalizing her behavior was a waste of time and energy, and kept me from detaching sooner
- Thinking about OM is a huge waste of time and puts me in an angry, worthless state. I don't see how I couldn't have at least some time being angry, though. As long as I don't keep thinking about him and hold on to the anger
- Hiring a PI, though, I do not regret. It allowed me to let go. I told him not to update me on her whereabouts, to just contact me if he found definitive evidence. I couldn't sleep or eat before I hired him. After that, I had the best 6 week stretch of my entire DB process