I read that it's good to bash pillows on the bed with a rolled up newspaper for 5 mins and rant & rave. You feel angry and it needs an outlet. But that outlet shouldn't be your W.
Find another way, so that you can release your anger and hopefully feel calmer when you see your W.

Maybe you could set some mini targets, so you can take baby steps with her. What would be a 180 from some of your previous 'tense' interactions with her? Choose a little something and give it a try, and remember, this isn't about her, it's about you learning to link positively with someone that you feel angry with - and that's for your own (and your S's sake.) Tell yourself that, if nothing else, you guys are going to have to co-parent, so best if things are as pleasant as you can make them.


T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus