[quote=KGirl] Time to really work on that letting go. Trying to think about some of the good things about this (finally some closure, not having to worry about whether the house is being paid for, only having to worry about how to do taxes this year) and remind myself the R itself was already over anyway. [/quote
Sweet K, I think you're closer to really letting go than you like to think.
It's a bit scary but you can do it. You'e done hard things before.
I just read this this morning and grief is grief. Maybe it'll help.