Busting this Divorce - 90 Days NC #3

[HPoirot]

Thank you LIsaB, SemperFi00, and 3kids. It is so nice of you all to say I'm doing great and "I have things controlled." Wow... really? You guys really help me b/c sometimes I feel... well wait... I'm not going to say what I was about to say.

Reality is I am taking control of what I can... my actions and responses... and I'm getting better everyday. That's all.

Very nice of you 3kids to say I'm helping you. I am humbled. I saw in your thread your W saying you are not thinking about her (b/c you are not returning her contacts). Interesting she would say that or care in current circumstances. My W also expressed I'm avoiding her and not "facing this head on" with her.

Interesting how they leave us but want us to think of them or respond to them. That's what DB coach was saying today... just be responsive and friendly neighborish more b/c somehow that's what they don't expect but want. But we all know that.

Just don't show your anger like I have. I see that's the most important thing for me regarding interactions. The last time my W called me crying about what she is doing... reaching out to me with something to say... I blew up at her and cursed at her and told her how to feel and what she should do. All seemed very logical to me but as we know words don't help at all.

Anyway... back to it then. Lot of work tomorrow to shut down the old home... then the movers come the next day. Then W has no home and no car. I could have never imagined this just 4 months ago.

For the past year I've been wanting freedom. I had been calling it time freedom... time to make my own choices and do what I want to do. I thought that meant my own online business. And it still could. But... I'm free now aren't I? Hmm...