Jefe - Climbing out of the mire - #8

[Jefe]

Grandma came home yesterday. It's been very trying because her mind is faltering. She's gotten angry a few times over things she swears she remembers happening, but we know never did. She's unable to do grip anything and so on. So we'll see how this all works out.

Me and the kids were at church for a few hours New Years Eve because I had to play CR, then went to a friends house to hang out afterwards. The weather has been crappy since Tues so no park or bike riding for us, but we've been having fun none the less. When the wife had the kids last night, I got to go hang out at a few of my favorite spots to visit that I haven't seen in a long time like the huge Bass Pro Shops by the airport and the Gaylord Texan which always has an awesome Christmas display. Then I used one of my gift cards I got for Christmas and treated myself to a steak dinner, because this kid's been living on a Ramen noodle and Mac n Cheese budget for a few weeks now. My PMA is a whole lot better now that everything around me has seemed to level out a bit and Christmas is finally over. I will be so glad when school starts back up and life gets back to normal.

Wife has been very involved in our lives since just before Christmas. She has come by a few evenings to just hang out with us, she has started calling almost every day, again, just to "check on the girls" but she usually just talks to me. She has come to get the girls a few extra times including last night. While she had the girls she called me for no other reason than just to see what I was doing and just to talk. She called several times wanting to know what we were doing for NYE. I think she wanted to hang with us but didn't know how to ask. I was going to offer but I knew she didn't want to hang at the church so I just left it alone.

She deleted OM3 and his pals from FB Christmas morning and deleted Suspected OM2 New Years day as well as a couple of other people purged in-between. She was here today and feeling very comfortable. We were talking in our bedroom and she even went to use the bathroom with the door open while still talking to me (this hasn't happened in months, door is usually locked). What does this all mean? I don't have a clue. I do know that I am being me. I'm not chasing but I'm mirroring. She's getting a little testy about money but I'm holding my ground on what I believe to be sound decisions. I am starting to see more and more of the fog lift but I'm not firing up the moving truck. So all in all, I'm okay with life for right now. Not how I choose for things to be, but I'm okay.