IDK, just seems like ever since your flirtation with OW you sound different.
For the record, I understand how you feel resentment. However, if you have doubts that you can forgive her, now is the time to confront yourself. Don't allow this to be about who wins the girl.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
