We really don't have any time for a date night until next weekend... So that will have to do for now.
I really just don't know what to say or how to approach it. I am scared that maybe he is second guessing his choice to be in this M. He was so gung go on doing every and anything he needed to do to make thing right with me. I don't know if it was too much too soon and he's second guessing himself. A big part of it is financial stress. That. I know for a fact. When I asked him what his new years resolution was the only thing he said was to get himself back together financially and get this new job.
I know I can/will be fine without him but that's not what I want. however I want to be in a M where I know and feel that my H loves and appreciates me. Here's to hoping this is a bump in the road. I really need to look into some other books because I'm struggling. On one hand I want to be the fixer and make everything better. On the other hand I feel like why am I making the effort, he left, he cheated what am I doing? Enabling him further? That I will try even harder? I'm not desperate.
I just want to know what happened? What happened to stop the guy he was the last few months to now. they are so opposite each other it's insane.
Part of me feels like he's depressed. He doesn't even want to talk much. He is full of yes, Ya, and okays. It's like dragging a conversation out of him. It makes me feel so unattractive and unwanted. This was the person that couldn't wait to talk to me and made me feel great. I guess maybe It seems worse because it's been taken away and I know he's capable of it. This is going to be a LONG week because I work this whole week and we won't be able to attend MC til the following week. I don't even know how to act or what to say. I feel like I'm back to stage 1 of all of this.
