Ok, just caught up on situation briefly. Sounds like you are doing as well as can be expected under very trying circumstances.
Don't worry too much about the highs and lows - it is so normal!
Also, like the poem at the beginning of this thread.
Originally Posted By: okjpc
Doing the DB program is helping me feel like I'm at least doing everything I can do for the M. Then I can give it all to God. Sort of like if it's God's will that my W and I can come together and save the M, then I'm all in. If it isn't God's will, then I can rest more easily b/c I am not sabotaging anything and I remain willing to do God's will. It's a comfort I feel at least on occasion throughout the day.
Great comments that I copied over from your previous link as a reminder (primarily for myself).
Thoughts and prayers are with you. Stay strong!
Me-48,W-51 M-22,T-24 S- 18,16,9 Feb-Jul '11 Away from Home, after initial B date Aug-Dec '11 Back at Home on couch Dec '11-now Same bedroom, room mates only Dec '14 W files initial D paperwork