The anti-versary and other musings

[Train]

Starsky,

I am so, so, so sorry to hear about your father-in-law. I absolutely cannot IMAGINE how beat-up your poor W is feeling with all the family issues going on; I'm sure you are exhausted, too. Prayers for peace and comfort - and (eventual) understanding - for all of you. Keep us updated on FIL. Big, big hugs.

Thank y'all for commiserating with me a little through this little, (probably insignificant) hiccup.

How you 'feel' is sometimes short term. Hopefully this confusion is part of that. Remember, it's a marathon.

Thank you for this reminder, MCS. I think you're right. And yes, Starsky, the double-whammy - 8 years apart - has done me NO favors, for sure. I guess I was "lucky" that BD1 happened nowhere close to our anniversary. That throws a whole new monkey-wrench in things, I'm learning. Good news is: I talked with H about half of my "issue" the other day (the half that involves V-Day things being a trigger), and he's being super-understanding about it.

I've just become such a cry-baby lately. We went out to dinner on NYE, and I was like a freakin' leaky faucet. And for no real reason. He just sits there and rubs my back and asks if I'm okay. I know he feels so helpless. Heck, *I* feel helpless when I don't even know half the time WHY I turn into the leaky faucet. Thankfully, it's happening less frequently these days.

I think I'll survive.

Thinking of you, Starsky. And thank y'all, again, for your support.