KGirl - one year later con't

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KGirl, I went through the exact same thing with a lot of our momentos, pictures, memories. I felt so hopeless and miserable when I thought of them. I wanted to forget the past. In fact, if we didn't have D2, I wonder if I would be halfway across the country by now.

I'm not all of the way there, by any means, but I have started to see the light that people talk about, that there is a brighter future. I've even been able to think back on some of our good times and smile, thoughts that would have sent me to tears or nausea for the previous 6 months.

So my advice is to simply stay the course. One step at a time. You don't have to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now to know you need to walk down the tunnel. For now, I think you're doing the right thing by getting those momentos out of sight. Someday you will be strong, happy and healthy, and then you get make a decision on what to do with them. Maybe a couple of them will make you laugh or smile even after you've totally moved on. I still have a shirt my HS sweetheart gave to me. I don't have feelings for her anymore, I haven't talked to her in 8 or 9 years. But the shirt just reminds me of fun that me and my friends had one summer. So I kept it, and I still enjoy wearing it.

Btw, I think you have been very strong not to turn and run, without any child obligations. I'm glad D2 kept me anchored here because it forced me to face the pain rather than run from it. KGirl decided that all on her own! Plus you're braving a Wisconsin winter, which is better than I could do.