Melissa!!! Great to hear from you. Happy 2015. I just expressed this EXACT feeling to my older Brother. I didn't understand it....I sat with it for a while and its getting better. Our X's and the loss of our M's become part of us...so there are times when it just "hurts" or feels odd. Even with so much in my life to be thankful for...it still hurts sometimes. I don't. Want STBXW back. My M was not good. My current witch is way better....still there is pain with this.
My STBXW and I actually spoke about that...I told her this "thing" has left a mark on me and despite being in a really good place now...the mark is still there. She agreed....there were some tears and apologies...but nothing will change.
Make your life and your kids' life really great. You earned this good stuff.
me: 47, W:49 M 16.5 years T 17 years Three kids - D17,D14, S13 Heart 2 heart about M 11/8/13 Bomb drop 11/29/13 W moved out 12/5/13 I Retained L 2/20/14 D filed 3/17/14
