Can someone please explain to me how it is that I'm looking forward to being single and in a more manageable environment, that most of my memories of him are negative and lonely, and yet I'm feeling weepy and upset? I WANT to let go. I DON'T want this marriage back. And yet there are huge lumps in my throat and chest, I haven't eaten, and I'm struggling to push him out of my mind? What is my body telling me that I won't hear.
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EXACTLY how I feel. Our D was final, XH ALREADY has a "new" gf (I suspect not quite as "new" as he claims), and I just feel all weepy and upset. I had FINALLY started sleeping well and then last night, it started again...waking around 2:00 and not being able to do anything but cry, shaking. I thought the D would at least bring closure, but not so much. Hang in there, Maybell...you are NOT alone.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids
