barely holding on - 6

[u-turn]

Yesterday was our aniversary and we went to lunch with the kids. I think the kids have an idea of whats coming. There was no talking of our aniversary and they noticed.

Before she went to sleep, I sat on the floor next to her and told her:(she had an uncomfortable and paniced look on her face - maybe thinking this is going to be our R talk or BD. I would not do this on our aniversary)

"I feel like a sh!thead for not even mentioning our aniv today. I want to let you know that am thinking of you and us. No matter what happens with us, it doesn't change all the great things we have had and done for the last 27 years."

She cried and said thank you. I wanted to say this - for me. I know this probably wouldn't have been advised. I had no expectations.