Married fast? Too late? Completely stuck :/

[Complex]

I figured it will be very hard. I feel so confident and detached right now, but I know exactly I'll be very challenged once I'm back.
I'll keep my challenges posted here. I'm reading so much in this forum all the time, it's really helping. But I probably need to get some professional guidance because I'm afraid I will make mistakes and I need some hand on advice exactly for my situation.
What do you mean by I will discover she wants everything on her terms?