I'm ready to have done it. It's the actual doing that's got me a little worked up. smile

Looking back I've really let fear make too many decisions. In August 2013 when I learned he'd gone and slept with OW again and totally gaslights me about it, I refused to look at him, kiss him, say I love him. He wanted all those things (and did them). Why didn't I toss him out then? Why was I so afraid of standing for myself?

Wow, and now saying that has eased my heart a little more too. I was angry enough to throw him out but too scared I couldn't take care of myself to do it. Crazy, considering I was doing everything by myself except earn the money. I forgot he even has an obligation to support us. I really let fear rule too much.

I've made good progress on getting the house organized today. Plenty more to do but I'm going to take a little break and spend a little time with the kids.

Last edited by Maybell; 01/01/15 08:32 PM.
Me42, H40
D12, S8, S7
A revealed: 7/13
Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15

She believed she could, so she did.