So please someone tell me that kids exchanges get emotionally easier. W just picked up the kids and it has taken all the wind out of my sails. I went from having fun playing video games with them to feeling like cr@p. I don't want to do this for the next 16 years......
W was back to being short and visibility annoyed. Hardly said a sentence to me. She will not walk more than 2 steps in the door. S5 asked her to see some of his Xmas presents and she said no, again. That would take walking further into the house. I just don't get it at all.....
Uggh, this stinks. New Years is a tough day in our family, my younger sister passed away 4 years ago and today is her birthday. Hopefully she's looking down and understands what's going on between W and I and what the outcome will be.
I had a dream about W last night. It was the first time that I can remember that it was a good dream. It was like she finally realized that she wanted to reconcile. W came up to me, gave me a hug and whispered in my ear ILY. I remember the feeling that I got in the dream that everything would be okay, it was just going to take a while. Here's to hoping that dream comes true.
M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
