Maybe that I worked REALLY hard to make this marriage happy FOR HIM and that giving up because I was unhappy was something I intentionally rejected six years ago. And now I have to do what I rejected and it's hard to change course after all those years of putting him first.
My heart feels eased. That must have been it. Thanks, everybody.
Yep, totally get that one, too. I worked really hard at making him happy and the fact that wasn't I happy was never going to be factored into my actions. I would have never left him. My challenge around all this recently has been getting out of a victim mode. I felt like I didn't have choices in so many areas. But my IC challenged me on this one, as well as some reading I did. Maybe there was only one choice that was appealing to me, but there were others. And a quick look around these boards shows me WAWs that are making different choices than I did. So I did have choices. And I still do. And it's time to make some different choices for ourselves Maybell. Are you ready?
